What it means to you ?....
Now it has been years n years that I have been shuffling between two different worlds, 2 cultures and mindsets. I have been away from my family mostly, except this year and in 2011 I was able to be near my parents for more than a half year.
I was disappointed to see at what level things had changed in India, especially everyone around has changed. Even me. Times we used to go out together, have fun, get crazy and get togethers.... only memories now.
Now, today, everyone is so busy in his or her life. Lots of other issues.
My heart feels lonely, craves for that family and human warmth and simply love.
Other thing is, because my partner is not from India, I was expecting a wide-arm-open-welcome for him from my people. I had been talking to him about our Indian families, so much love, affection and closeness
I feel sorry for him that I'm not always able to show him the real Indian love I had dreamt of.... although he never complained, he likes them all as much as he has known them.
People have changed, traditions are changing, values are changing.... relationships are going through transformations.
But I have been disappointed by selfishness, ego, jealousy, ignorance of certain people back in India.
I feel helpless
